we say goodbye , but never let go

Je T'aime Justin Bieber

2011-04-20T18:02:00.003+08:00

Qui devraient être moi être votre One Less Lonely Girl.

As much as I used to hate you, now I'm falling deeply deeply in love with you Bieber !
You just can't seem to be outta my mind these days. I can't even concentrate in class and now I'm memorizing your songs instead of memorizing Biology or Chemistry !

It's 6:17 PM now. Less than 24 hours to go. I'll be in front of you, in the centre. I'll be one of those crazy girls ( and boys? ). I'll shine like a sun.

Guérir ma fièvre, Dr Bieber ! xo

Changement Pour Le Mieux

2011-04-19T14:40:00.002+08:00

Change

All I do in class was ..sleeping.

Then sleep ..again.

And ..sleep?

Seriously, this attitude has got to stop. 60% of 24 hours is me.. sleeping. That's not good. NOT GOOD.

Change

I've been through ups and downs. Well, my downs are more then the ups.
Life is not fair. Life never asks me what I want. FIN.

P/s : The term fair and justice are NOT in my dictionary of life.

Change

No matter how hard things have been going. No matter how broken-hearted I am. No matter how unfair life is.

No one can fucking stop me from what I want.

P/s : Tout n'est past destiné à être

Traiter avec elle chienne ! xo

Amour Ou La Luxure

2011-04-18T13:14:00.003+08:00

I.NEED.MONEY.$$.

Attempt to study. EPIC FAILED. All I do was playing the piano & guitar. Singing to emo songs. Tweeting. Yes. Now I'm blogging ..again.

Seriously, I need to change. Like. As soon as possible.

There's 200+- til the day I'll finally die.

mourir.mourir.mourir.

I hope you'll die with me too xo

Clafoutis aux Cerises

2011-04-18T08:27:00.002+08:00

Depression, confusion, hows and whys in the morning, are the worst thing ever could happen to start your day.

P/s : At least you know that you're not alone. Whoever you are. Wherever you are.

Ont un peu de foi xo

Amante De Tiempo Completo

2011-04-18T07:40:00.005+08:00

Who needs love, when waking up with a view like this from the window? :)

Los amantes de la buena mañana

Well, woke up at 6AM to off both of my alarms. 3 actually. Yes, I need 3 alarm clocks to wake me up. Each at the bedside table; left and right and my berry. *yawns*

It's 8:03AM, I'm at the study table, should be studying and here am I blogging while listening to Justin Bieber ft. Jessica Jarrell - Overboard.

Since I'm nowhere near school today, I should make today as productive as I can and avoiding ze bed. *fingers-crossed*

los amantes de la tienen un día agradable xo

Entre Plusieurs Choses

2011-04-18T02:14:00.002+08:00

There's a lot have been going on. I don't know what I feel. I'm not sure whether am I supposed to feel anything. What should I feel. For whom should I feel.

I hate this feeling that's for sure.

Is it pathetic enough to actually be in love again after trillions of heartbreaks?
Is it love or lust?
Is it love or the need of having someone by your side?
Is it love or the title 'taken' ?
is it love is it love is it love ?

My definition of love is an/a emotion/feelings/reactions when you're with that specific person. You would always want his/her touch. and when you did, the world spins around, butterflies rip your stomach out, heart stops beating.
It will always be this way.

love and be loved, lovers.

avoir de l'espoir xo

Trauer

2011-04-18T01:59:00.003+08:00

That's not true isn't it?

We will eventually patch up, stand up and move on.

Poire Belle Hélène

2011-04-18T01:13:00.002+08:00

It's 1:19 AM. And I'm starving. How I wish food can just appear in front of me.
It's 1:22 AM. And I don't know what to write about.
It's 1:23 AM. And I cant wait for Bieber's concert.

Life never asks me, what I want. No matter how bad I want it.

It's frustrating. Yes.

It's more frustrating when its 1:28 AM and you can't seem to just shut your eyes and go to bed. And have to wake up like 5 hours after that.

Since I can't sleep then I guess I'll just stay in front of the laptop and figure out what to do.

Frankly, I don't know what I wanna do in life. What my life would be in the future. 1) Is life involves only your studies, goals, dreams and the person you'll become in the future? 2) Or is it involves being with your love ones; family, friends, lover. No matter how hard things are going, no matter how uneducated and poor you are, as long as you're with them?

What is 'life' ? How can you want a perfect life while you don't know what 'life' means?
Even wikipedia couldn't define 'life' specifically.

Bonne nuit lovers ! xx

A Whole Of Chocolat Framboise

2011-04-17T19:00:00.009+08:00

chocolate doesn't make me happy, it makes me fat.

According to mum, everytime she eats her favourite chocolate ; Bittersweet Belgium Chocolate. The bitterness in her life fades away as they are replaced by something that's at least sweet enough to make her happy for a moment.

Bonjour, bloggers!

It has been a year and a few months since the last time I blogged due to asrama life.

I was laughing my ass off reading my previous posts on how much I hated asrama.

Well, as I grow older and wiser, there's nothing wrong with living in the hostel.
Hostel = Subway vegie delite ; no beef, no chicken, no breakfast strip etc. Just vegetables and sauces. No matter how often you eat it, it won't harm you, instead, gives you all the vitamins etc that you need.

Que c'est pour l'instant ! xx

Poof-poof Part 4

2010-02-24T01:36:00.004+08:00

Hello, teehee. God I miss blogging, telling emo emo stuff, HAHAHAHA, tssk tssk

okaay, damn, its 1.37 AM and Im bored to death, and also sleepy, and I got raptai hari sukan tomorrow, Ill be a dead moving body *giggles*

Ive just finished my BM project ! *hooray* or i think I do :S *giggles*

Damn, I miss my room, I wanna go home *tssk tssk* can anyone please, please kidnap me. Haih, this is what happens when youre staying in the asrama full of shits, damn, I didnt mean to hurt your feelings but yeah, you sucks . okay , i dont know wht im talking abt now *lost*

xx

Poof-poof Part 3

2010-02-22T18:38:00.004+08:00

Hello, in this going-to-rain-heavily-like-moment. Happy Chinese New Year, hmm, I know its kinda late already but Im still in the mood to clbrte it *giggles*

Sorry for not updating, its been kinda hectic lately with a lot of things going on *sad*

OH YEAH, my dad was admitted to Damansara Specialist Hospital because of appendix or something, and it was going to burst anytime, thank god we were early.

And I also bought this leopard-wedge at www.unitenderblush.blogspot.com .
Damn nice okayy, you guys should click at that link for further information, HEHE

And also python legging , www.lamoreux.blogspot.com
Damn cheap, and nice also :)

Oh, hm. I feel like bitching, so lemme tell you a story

Well well well, for yr fcking information, I've been so long done with you, and your attitude, so stop fcking arnd with me, Im sick of your atts -.- pls for once, stop thinking tht everyone revolves around you.
'Face the fact :) welcome to my world' ? ( wth??!)
Like I care? huh, I couldnt care less

Anyways, gtg, well , asrama. Duh, I would be dreaming if I can sit around like this -.-
So, I'll come back this Thursday, and will update everything tht's been happening ! *giggles*

xoxo

Poof-poof part 2

2010-01-17T10:06:00.004+08:00

Well, as you all know, that now Im in SMKDU and has been staying in the hostel for 11 days now. Papa applied for MRSM in Kuala Kubu Baru, Selangor, and i got in, but there's some problems, I like DU, the school, the people in school, I dont really like the hostel, the people, pfft. God knows how they are, not all, just the certain people, and I dont like the 'we-can-only-go-back-once-a-month'. Hello, like even MRSM go back every 2 weeks.

Currently; Im at the hostel, waiting for mama to come in 1/2 an hour. And mama gonna take back the lappy, since I have my broadband along with me, I didnt even touch a book, and that's bad. Haha. Haih

Anywyas, I have something to tell you, I'll post as soon as I can but not now Im afraid, maybe in two weeks time when i get back home. Im so excited ! stay tune alright people !

xx

OHH , Dang Sari's mum just came and brought this amazing-finger-licking-good-home-baked-potato.
and Mama's gonna come in 15mins, she's bringing pizza, AAAAAA

xx

2010, Getting Better and Worst At The Same Time

2010-01-02T01:55:00.002+08:00

Hmm, the better parts are ;
The owner of the car that i hit just wants cash to repair the car. *Let's make it 'The better part(s) is/are* *tht's the only good thing that I can think of at the moment*

and the worst parts are ;
Where can i get the money to pay him off?
My mum just realized that i accidently crashed neo, I mean like you know, the post down here (last night she was mad because i drove the car w/o her, she didnt notice that i kemek-ed the car)
I will never get my iPhone and D60, *okay , this is obvious*
and, this one's the BEST
She doesn't want me to stay with her, in other words, she's sending me to a boarding school, God knows where, again.

You see, I'm not like a bad person, Im just a normal teenager growing up. I mean not all of teenagers do wht i did, but I can say most ? Idk, correct me if Im wrong. At least I've experienced and learnt my lesson right? wtv

Im not really in the mood right now, I feel like bitching someone, hm, no, I feel like running away, away frm here, to clear my mind off, ohh, no, nope, I just wanna know, tht this was all nightmares, I just wanna be with someone that can comfort me, that can tell me that everything's gonna be okay altho its not, someone that I can cry to, someone who can tell me that my parents are doing what parents are supposed to do, someone that I can hug and never let go and someone tht can show me tht they love me. Fin.

xx

New Year's Eve

2010-01-01T15:40:00.003+08:00

Woke up around 3pm then took a shower. Drove to Bsd to meet idk, a lot of people at diff places but around there. Lost on my way going there, called A then waited for him at in front of Rasta. B took over and drove to curve bcause he needs to buy idk what. Then I took over and he showed the way to Bsd. Dropped him at Mcd and i went to Safa to meet M, unfortunately she wasn't there, she was, 1 hour 30 mins ago, but I was lost right, with the irritating traffic jam at the Curve *sighs*. Then went to Mcd again lepak for a while with B, then H came with his idk who, gf maybe and then A came. 15 mins after that M called and said she was sorry, she went to DU fr a while to pick W. Then I drove again to Safa to meet them, then A texted asked whether im going back to Mcd or not, then 15 mins after lepak-ed at Safa with M, W, R and M I drove off again to Mcd, then T texted, he was hungry and all, and I said let's go eat something. Reached Mcd, fought with A. After I took off to pick T, A texted that its over, then okay. T and me went to Beragas, and AA was there, after finished eating, M called, asked to pick her up, then went to Beragas again, she and W had their dinner then around 8 we went to padang Saga while waiting for S,N and those guys. Were planning to go to DPC to clbrte, well, on my way there something awful happened, I crashed a car, MY CAR wasn't that good, lampu pecah, kemek and all. *sighs* I was damn panick la duh, S called N, and he came, I hugged him. haih , what a terrible NYE. Guards took my IC and all, waited for almost 1/2an hour fr the owner of the car to come, but she didnt then I just left my phone num for her to call, then around 1am she called, she was okay, very nice, and i set up for a meet, supposedly today, but her father called me and said tht its okay but I have to pay for his car lah, I dont think its tht expensive because sikit je pun *finger-crossed*

Oh, clbrted NYE with A, he came, to the house.

xx

Poof-poof part 1

2009-12-28T04:11:00.002+08:00

Well, was supposed to go watch movie with the girlfriends but they were all busy *sighs* . Asked A but he was busy *sighs-er*. Asked T and he just woke up and free, but 1 problem, his mum was using the car. So T and N picked me up and went to uptown to eat dinner after 3 hours of waiting for T hehe *chill T*. N and me had lamb chop, which wasn't that nice but we're hungry, so what right? T ate 'daging masak merah' with rice which looks so finger-licking-good HAHA then after dinner we went to Mcd to lepak with S. then TM and M came. Lepak-lepak, had chocotop and T sent me home around 1. I was shocked mama didnt call, because you know i have curfews and all, have to be back bfre 12, cinderella-like HAHA and I guess that was it for today.

xx

THE RESULTS

2009-12-25T21:42:00.003+08:00

DUP..DAP..DUP..DAP..*getting faster

PMR results yo, shit -_-
well, i went there obviously not with baju kurung, let say that im the only one who didnt wear baju kurung, I mean comeeee onnnnn -_- i know its klntn wtv but at least i put my scarfs on but with some reasons the wind blew it away at the end , HAHA okay

So, the first person i saw is hm let me recall , wait , i forgot, but i hugged them as soon as i saw them, ditched my dad *sorry dad. And I started to scream, duh, obviously.

Then, the teachers asked us to take a seat in the hall because they're gonna announce the results. And a cpl of parents sat in the row behind us,well obviously we're noisy and they looked annoyed but dont really care. While waiting for the thingy to start, Cikgu Azli called me, and he said

Cikgu : Anith, 1 je la.
Me : HAH! 1 APA CIKGU ?! *obviously i panicked
Cikgu : 1 je la , haih awak ni
Me : Apa ni cikgu, lek lek aa jgn aa main-main
Cikgu : 1B je, hehehehehe, 7A 1B
Me : Eh, cikgu ni , suka ah tipu, mana cikgu tau ? *dlm kepala otak : cikgu ni ee , tipu je
Cikgu : saya tgh check la ni, bila masa pulak saya tipu awak
Me : Ee, pape ah ckg. Nnt saya jmp ah ckg

WOW, I started to panicked, really2 panicked and then Bonda gave some speech about the percentage crap, I wasnt paying much attention because I'm panicking. The speech was long, long enough to make someone die. Specifically, *I die
Then it's time, It's freaking time. 8A's, 7A's and 6A's would have to go up the stage and get a bouquet of flwrs crap and they announced 7A's 1B first, I was like shit, if Cikgu Azli was right, my name would be call, and why on earth didnt they call my name yet?! and then i heard someone calling my name ANITH DALILA BT ZAINAL ABIDIN. I was like, err, whaaat ? and i looked at Dayah, she was smiling, and i screamed, the high tone scream like the one tht anith dalila always does. Yeah, and with my heels tht's killing my leg I went up the stage, with crappy scarf that i tried to get comfortable with *because its licin and i didnt wear terbus* and there I was, receiving the slip and flowers. I go off the stage and started running *yes with the killing heels* towards my dad. He was like really happy and started to call everyone. Its kind of the first time seeing him this happy for something i did. I want to cry, but i didnt *its a happy cry y'know.haha*

Then, I came back to where I was seating, the mum tht sat behind me congrat-ed me, and she said 'Awak ni style lah' hahaha , at the time i was like 'Gila rockstar mak cik ni' then i salam her. Yeah, tht's pretty much about it.

Me, Dayah, Ada, Koman, Mimi, and Mia(koman's sister) lepaked at KB Mall since i'm not gonna go to school ovr there next yr, its pretty much a-bye-bye- thingy. Gonna post some pictures later, when i get them from Mimi -.- haha

xx

tetttt I got it all wrong

2009-12-19T01:35:00.002+08:00

HAHAHA , ignore the post down here , tht so called 'Thanks'
I was wrong, :O

Well, I just got back from Sri Cempaka Dsara Prom, I'll write soon abt it and maybe post some pics :D

xx

Thanks

2009-12-18T15:39:00.002+08:00

Thank you, you GUYS, for hurting me, over and over again. I think I'll get used to be hurt over and over again.

Is it damn hard just to pick up your damn phn or reply my msgs to say tht you're not interested in me, so it could be easier for me to move on and not waiting like a fool for you? What the fuck happen to 'Will You wait for me?', 'I've been single for a few years, please, if suddenly you changed your mind, please let me know so that I wont be hurt again'
And i think that, You're the one who changed your mind.
Is it that hard for you to say, maybe, You're not serious? Why does it has to sound like You are while You're not?

Yes, it's too early, I barely know you. It's just me who fell for your sweettalks, my fault. I wouldn't blame it on you.

*I don't know those things I wrote make sense*

Maybe, You're scared, or, just too mysterious?
You're unpredictable, so Im sorry if I was wrong, but give it a chance to let ppl understand you.
I'm sorry tht You hurt me.

xx

It's OH EM GEE,

2009-12-17T20:02:00.004+08:00

*Dead, really

PMR results - 24th Dec WOW ain't it? It's like in 7days = 148hours.
*panicking*
*heart's beating faster*

WOW ITS IN 7 F DAYS

You don't know what I'll get through if i mess this up.
Currently my situation now is fucked up enough, with overprotective parents GOD KNOWS WHY.

I don't understand why people always said 'Chill ah, PMR JE pun. Kabut lebih'
It's not JUST , it's more than JUST . It will lead us somewhere in the future, to where most of people's dreams will be realised.

Hahaha, I sounded like a Mak Cik pulak -.-

OH, and I'll be taking my results in Kelantan, and I'm looking forward to that. Missed the crazy friends :')
*When i bitch abt the school, *and still will be*, its just the school and some particular ppl*

I didn't tell my parents yet abt the date, and they'll not know until someone tell them because
1. Too busy taking after children tht's not even his's *I mean flesh and blood
2. Too busy loving the other wife
3. Too busy to come and see wht's been going on at home
4. Too busy ...
5. Too busy ...
6. Too busy ...
*To a particular person, I think you could fill that up right? If You even realized. Poor You. I love you, but its just some facts tht i couldn't lie/hide.

xx

PEOPLE, IM BACK

2009-12-16T19:43:00.004+08:00

OH GEE , It's been a long time since I last blogged :O Sorry but I was busy with school and life. So yeah,

Hmm, I just came back from Bandung, here are some pics of me and my family;

Shiit, gotta run, I'll write soon

xx

Kelantan II

2009-04-02T22:43:00.002+08:00

hmm , well , i miss my friends in kl , and i miss my guitar , my room .
and my sisterawadah was warded again because she cant breathe or something like that .
i want to go back to kl , i want to have my freedom back ! alaa , :( rasa mcm nak nangis .dah la mcm semua org mcm dh lupa i je :( sedih okay . haha . i want to go to the mall like i used to dgn my frnds and all . haih . okay this blog is just going nowhere , i dnt know what to talk about and im stressed out because i havent finish the public speaking text yet and the competition is like on this saturday 4th april and now is already 2nd april wtf , boodh laaaaa , ergh , i thought that the teachers yg the one who supposed to do the text , not me :( i cried for several times today . fuck lah . baik tk payah pg sekolah je if all of the teachers mcm expect the students blh buat semua bnd !

xx

KL . Kelantan

2009-03-20T21:27:00.001+08:00

well , its not as bad as i think it is. Fine , maybe its a bit religious :S or a little bit more and like muslims have to wear tudung to the mall otherwise kene saman HAHA that's wht i heard lh , but mcm never happen to me pun, so yeah. I really think that its up to us you know, i mean , i know its their thing to advice muslims to tutup aurat because its a have to kind of thing but its really up to us , are we ready or not kan , but yeah . wtv haha

The hostel , well , hm , 1st of all , i've had histeria like in the 3rd week or something , scary tho . they said that im the strongest among all yang kene :S and because i have 6 piercings and maybe used to color my hair (i blacken it black back bt it turns the color like fading because the color before was too strong -.- ) and the PK HEM saw my piercings and my hair and she said that it might be because of that . wtv lah .

there are some people that are open minded , like my frnds of course. some of them when i first came there , when i told them how i live my life bfre they were like 'god!' and the next mrning didnt talk to me again :S so , on this 22nd i'll be giving ceramah at the surau which they call musalla here about hmm my life i think . haha . and i gave 1 bfre the school holidays and it was about 'memfitnah' . and my senior , which im kind of close to , told me that , there's someone asking her when i was giving the ceramah abt the fitnah thingy and that someone was like , 'oh i thought she had 6 piercings and this and that and doesnt know abt Islam' *in kelantanese of course* well obviously it depends on the family she used to live before stupid ! -.- and now baru like berpandangan baik and this is what i call stupid cupid ppl that i hate . even the biro agama pun mcm take it slowly because they understand how i chnged my life mcm sgt contra okay dgn yg dulu , so people , chill , im trying to change and you kind of people are so not helping ! i feel like screaming at their faces -.- just wait and see what im gonna talk abt this 22nd and you gys wil be gobsmacked !

oh , and i heard ada this girl mcm jealous , and she told my frnd ni dia prnh jeling dkt i and i buat bodoh or even dont recognize pun. so , what do you expect me to do ? cungkil biji mata kau ? bodoh , orang yang bodoh je buat mcm tu okay and im not tht stupid -.- ergh stupid .

haha , and yeah , the whole teachers knew how i live my life bfre and since my cousin's teaching there mcm memburukkan nama dia haih , wtv . mu ustzh adviced me the other day and i cried , she said she knows evrything and then masa extra class there was this teacher which i dnt know and doesnt teach our class came in because we're too noisy and she asked 'who's the new student?' and i raised my hand and she was like 'oh,wear your tudung properly' *bajet kau bagus sgt ah* urgh . how i live my life bfre has nothing to do how i live my life now kan , so fuck off la . eeee , geram :( lantak kau lah at least aku berperangai baik , kalau jahat pun dkt luar je . HAHA

so yeah , i have loads of friends , and i gained a lil bit of weight . and guess what ? i got 72% for my sejarah *hooray haha . never get close to D pun and ttbe dpt B :D how cool is that . haha . and i was chosen to compete in pidato in english :S haha , and im apparently the only student that's from outside of kelantan . thank god i live here fr a few years back then unless ill never understand what theyre talking about. HAHA . and guess what ? i have my slang already -.- urgh . haha

yeah , tht's al fr now
xx

OHHHHH MYYYYY

2009-01-22T22:09:00.002+08:00

OHHHHHHHHH MYYYYYYYYYY GOOOOOOODDDDDDDD !
omg , guess whaaaaaat ?
im moving like next friday :(
im sooo gonna miss you guys and lately we've been having good times laughing and all. ill miss that you know ;/ no one cn ever replace you guys :*
and just now i went to makbul with sya and atqh , and guess whatttt ? i saw paan :D i was like shouting and everybody were looking at me -.- biar la, mcm tk prnh jerit pulak kau :@ hahahaha , yeah . the last time i saw him was abt a mnth ago -.- gila lama ,. and esok nyaaaah aka pantat balik :D hahaha . haih .

oh yeah , im going there like in another week . and just now balqis was telling about the asrama and all and she saw hantu crap thingy like bergantung on the ceiling , FUCK ,. pray for my success , ngeh

1st Day Of School

2009-01-05T18:59:00.002+08:00

Fucked up. Its like i have to stay like an idiot for the whole day in the discipline room just because of the stupid hair thingy. HELLO, its like the first day of school. And starting from tomorrow i have to start wearing tudung -.- haha I miss staying in the classroom and gossip-ing with Atiqah, Maria, and Insyi :( and I just missed all the gossips they were talking about just now. GRR :@

currently listening to A lonely September - Plain White T's
Well, Icky and Weyna sing it better :P *Icky kembang bontot HAHAHA

Haih, what a boring day in the Hospital *sighs*

GRR ,

2009-01-04T20:13:00.003+08:00

i want this thing , right thereeee ------>>>>
sape nak presentkan ? :D hehehehe
tak nak presentkan tak apa , :@ grr , HAHAHA , masalah .

Fatimah Yusra Bt Ahmad Sidek

2009-01-03T01:01:00.002+08:00

I will never ever forget you bestfriend. Although we're not going to be in the same school and country, You'll always be my bestfriend. You've helped me alot. We've been through ups and downs together. Haih . I'm sorry if I've ever hurt your feelings which i think i may have. haha . well you know that im like that kan sya :P hahaha , you guys will be a lot aman-er when im not around nnt. haha :P no one can replace you. NO ONE. I will remember all the times we had together, memories stays. Let's just forget about all the fights we had last year. It was all just a stupid misunderstanding. I LOVE YOU YUSRA <3

new year's eve

2009-01-03T00:19:00.002+08:00

Damn fucking boring okay. From morning til night i have to be at the hsptl to take care of Awadah. Haih. Called Oyie and Afzal to take me out but Oyie was in KL and Afzal was otw from Penang and that time he was still at Tapah. But they did call me that night , at 11pm , that time i just got back from the hospital. Fucking tired okay. 1 whole day i was at the hsptl -.- *sighs* and they called at the same time , Oyie called to Baby's phone and Afzal's to Mama's phone , haha , then Afzal asked me whthr i want to follow him to the curve or not , then i gave the phone to Papa and he said 'Where are you guys going ?' 'Curve kot, boleh tk ?' 'No , no , cannot. Count her out ' . Fuck ke tak ? Fuck kan ? so Mama , Baby and me just watch the fireworks from our house balcony. How I wish im not under my parents care anymore.

i miss

2008-12-28T17:47:00.006+08:00

well , i cried when i look at these pictures and while listening to Kris Dayanti - Menghitung Hari. its been 8 days since i last met you guys. i really2 miss korang :( like hell. Seriously i do. I love you guys so much doe. i miss chilling with you guys. i miss paan's stupid jokes and silat apa lancau tu. i miss paantat being a nyah. i miss naim tumbuk2 tgn i. altho it hurts tau naim -.- hahaha. i miss azy's lecture . i miss izzroy's being entah lah , bodoh mamat tu . HAHAHA. i miss alya, fizow , eiyka :/ and i miss nadhil the most. his hugs and kisses and the fights we always had. i miss chilling with you guys oh. selalu at this time kita selalu lepak makbul or ou en ;( haih . I LOVE YOU GUYS <3

woah

2008-12-27T00:28:00.005+08:00

i dont know why but i'm so excited to move there somehow :S okaaaay , that's weird kan -.- but , i dont know, after browsing that school's website and all , that school looks very interesting , and the students there are very competitive . yeah . eh eh , kalau ckg situ suruh i introduce myself en , i'll say this :
hello there , im anith . from KL . i moved here because my parents think tht im a spoiled brat . well , i think i am :S they send me here because they want me to be a better person . well , i smoke , i drink , i have 6 piercings . dont be my friend . i have a lot already and you dont want to end up being like me do you ? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH .
HAHA , mcm gangster pulak *kening kening . HAHA .
hell no , im not gonna say that -.- the ex principle is my dad's er i dont know what's their relation , ngeh . and still , the ex principle is still teaching there , and he got a daughter . also a teacher there . so im not gonna embarassed my family's name lah kan :O see , im nice kan ? :D hahaha .

and just now , i met Nadhil at rasta. But only for 1/2 an hour kot :| well , he doesn't look okay . i mean , he looks okay but from his face , i can see that he is not okay :| he said that he will wait fr me , and after the PLKN thingy , he'll go to Kelantan and will find me -.- HA-HA syg . im going to boarding school , and its Kelantan we're talking abt . HAHA then he was like , 'oh , ala , 3 tahun je lepas tu kita kawen , then you nak bljr lagi en ' -.- bongok oh dia ni kadang2 . adoiii . HAHAHA. well , after he gone back . he texted to my sister's phone , he said ' i love you so much and take care ' then a few minutes later , he called , he said 'oh sbnrnye td i tgh tahan nangis oh , i nak nangis tp mcm awal sgt ' and i was 'oh bie , im not going anywhere :), haa ? awal sgt ? wht do you mean ? HAHA ' then he said 'nanti if you tk jadi pg kelantan you bgtau i okay ? ' i was ' yeah , nnt i text you :) ' then he said ' okay , bye i love youu so much ' then , after a few minutes , well 15 mins to be precise , he called again , and this time he was crying :| he was like ' *crying* bie , jgn tgglkan i okay ? i syg you ' and i was like ' no bie , i tak tgglkan you , i janji ok , sumpah . dah la , jgn la nangis , semua benda okay alright ' then he was like ' nanti jgn lupa call i , bye , i love you so much ' and i was like ' okay syg , i love you too take care '

i pg kejap je okay bie ? nnt i blk lah :) its not like im going there frvr . i love you bie . and i will wait fr you

dan saya minta maaf dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki kepada seseorang tu . i didnt mean to hide it from you tapi mcm , haih . entah lah . im sorry :| i love youuuu :(

so , this is goodbye ?

2008-12-26T01:28:00.002+08:00

i'm moving , wow :o to Kelantan , WOW-er :o . *sighs* i dont want to move there . leave nadhil and my bestfrnds and frnds ? no , haih . just now at the cafeteria , mama and papa talked abt this , even last night . haih . so their serious -.-
*eating*
papa : next year you duduk dkt Kelantan eh , sekolah SMK Zainab(1) . seronok tau tak :D
me : oh , i nak pindah , tp dkt lah sikit . i dont care ada relatives situ ke tak . Penang or Pahang mcm best je * ;(
mama : i care . kenapa Pahang ? *plkn Nadhil dkt situ , HAHA
me : entah .
papa : no , you're gonna stay with kak yus . or you wanna stay with kak yah at johor ?
me : kak yus lah -.-
papa : why not kak yah ?
mama : because kak yah strict , kak yus tak sgt . okay lah , fine . i give you another chance blablabla
me : no , im going .
papa : oh , you tak kesian ke dkt kitaorang ? irdina semua nnt mcm mana ?
me : *yeah right . dah nak hntr tu hntr je lah doe* i want an ice cream . jom baby . papa , nak duit ?
papa : *talking to kak mimi , abt taking care of me nnt .

well , yeah . i didnt really mean to say the 'no , im going' . i was frustrated at that time kot . wht do you expect me to say . haih .

*room*
me : maa , i think i dont want to go lah .
mama : perangai teruk mcm tu tak nak pg . no , you MUST GO , FULLSTOP
me : i want to change school but i wanna stay at home :/
mama : NO , I SAID NO . kalau sekolah belakang rumah tu boleh buat perangai . ni sekolah jauh-jauh ni lagi lah kan ?
me : *td kata nak bagi another chance -.-* hm , okay *menitiskan air mata , haha

how am i gonna live without Nadhil and my bestfrnds ? i love you guys so damn fucking much . especially you sayang :( i dont know how am i gonna live without you, bie :(

dugaan ,

2008-12-22T13:40:00.003+08:00

*skip*
*skip*
*skip*

papa and mama suruh aku tgglkan nadhil . how sad is that ?
im stucked . family - me - nadhil . and i love all of them . i dont know what to do . i dont even know why they asked me to leave him . i dont want to leave him .

at first papa called him , and he said okay la kan , if nak kawan , elok2 apa semua . but when he read msgs from my junior yang mengatakan nadhil teruk dan memberi nasihat to me . well , she doesnt even know the real thing . and i just save the msgs because i wanna see her . it was a big mistake not deleting her msgs and i have to learn to ignore wht people say. then after they read the msgs my dad called nadhil and bgtau dia suruh i tgglkan dia . gila , when i ask my dad wht did he told him , he asked me back , wht did nadhil told me . nmenyirap nye -.- i know im only 14 and there's more life than boys but , its love we're talking about .

oh , and my parents think that im on drugs and nak buat urine test . buat la , you're not gonna find anything . it doesn't mean tht if i smoke , im on drugs . *sighs

ohh , and yesterday , my dad said that , if he fnd out tht im stl contacting with him , he's gonna find him and slap him then my dad will be having trouble with his dad , so , if i dont want him to be so called famous , try him . hey, if you want to see im dead , try me ?

conclusion , karma's a bitch babyyy

this is what i get when i broke someone's heart not a very long time ago .

but , its fate right ? what can i do

tp setiap masalah , ada penyelesaiannya kan ?
ill try my best to find how to solve this thing. everything will be just fine nanti . InsyaAllah .
amin

what a day ,

2008-11-01T20:39:00.002+08:00

oh , hari k just now was veryy tiring -.- and some things came up like these things down there :

and sorry lah tak dpt kemas , i've told you earlier that i have to go back early kan ?
you dont need to be mad lah , unless i balik mcm tu je without saying a thing .

oh , and about the picture , I DID NOT LEAN ON HIM , and it was just a picture , i've said sorry , i've done my part , so its up to you to forgive me or not .

oh , and about the boyfie thingy , you dont need to be mad at me , at least im telling the truth , isnt that what you want pun kan ? its kinda a 'thank you' for me though for giving you what you want . oh and please , you're gonna tell 'him' what i've done before this ? go ahead and tell . i dont really care anymore . let's just see how far you can go.

kawan

2008-10-28T21:46:00.002+08:00

kawan boleh dicari ,
sahabat ? tidak sesekali .
sahabat yang telah mengharungi through thick and thin .
aku dlm situasi yg sangat rumit sekarang .
I DONT TAKE SIDES , I REPEAT THAT .
how can you choose between your bestfriend and your good friend ?
aku memang tak boleh nak pilih .
nanti one of korang pun terasa kan .
susah la mcm tu ,
so ive made my decision , i dont want to get involve in this thing .
and you guys please , dont try to make me involve in this thing .
altho i know that you were talking rubbish abt me behind my back ,
but hey , i dont give a shit .
no heart feelings taken, alright ?
youre still my bestie altho it hurts so fucking damn much .

dah dah la tu , dapat apa pun gaduh-gaduh ?
tak payah la ungkit cerita lama .
dah tak boleh pergi balik dah pun yg lalu tu .
i hate to see 2 groups pun .
let's just be friends again .

let's stop manipulating stories ,
and stop judging people .
it would be the best not to judge people lagi-lagi your good friends .
because we can't change who they are if they choose to be like that .
or maybe we can perbetulkan kan ?
all of us have choices , so why dont we choose the best ones ?
stop being blair waldorf wannabe alright ?

please , wake up !

im sorry if my words are a bit harsh but its for the best .

<3

the ex ,

2008-10-21T23:02:00.002+08:00

setelah sekian lama menghilang ,
hari ini muncul kembali ?
pelik, sungguh pelik ,
aku igt kau terlalu rajin untuk create banyak-banyak account,

		LILOT	hmm?
		LILOT	hye
		he who spawned the fury	who's this ?
		he who spawned the fury	:D
		LILOT	who are you.
		he who spawned the fury	erm
		he who spawned the fury	anith
		he who spawned the fury	:S
		LILOT	ha anith
		he who spawned the fury	haa ?
		he who spawned the fury	and you aree ?
		LILOT	idont think i know anyone with that name
		he who spawned the fury	ah
		he who spawned the fury	i see
		he who spawned the fury	okay theb
		he who spawned the fury	+then
		he who spawned the fury	haha
		LILOT	yeah
		LILOT	have a nice msn session
		he who spawned the fury	yeah
		he who spawned the fury	EH WAIT , ni faiz eh ?
		LILOT	hmm?
		LILOT	what?
		he who spawned the fury	oh
		he who spawned the fury	sokay
10:39:40 PM	he who spawned the fury	LILOT	err aight...

aku bukan saja menanya siapa dia ,
betul , sumpah lupa semenjak kau dah buat banyak sgt account ,
haha ,

'tak kenal maka tak cinta , dah kenal mcm celaka'

oh , aku sudah menceritakan betapa *tutt tutt* punya lah kan mamat ni ?
tak apa lah , redha , cerita lama pun kan ,
dan aku pun sudah berpunya jadi yeah .
teringat semata-mata . tidak ada kena mengena pun dgn dulu .
what past is past .

<3

oct 16

2008-10-17T11:26:00.002+08:00

went to bsd , technically to meet mukhlis<3
yeah , it was all good ,
til masa nak blk ,
suddenly danial cant pick me up because his nenek masuk hospital or something ,
there's no cab pun juga ,
but at last he came with abe ,
thank god <3
but you guys , try to be kind or not rude lah sikit ,
please ?
i appreciate that you guys came but tolonglahh ,

<3

hidup ini memang palat , tapi esok masih ada

2008-10-14T13:10:00.003+08:00

okay , apa kata jika esok tidak ada bagi aku ?
*aku tidak meminta
hanya memikir ,
aku bukanlah baik sgt di dunia ini ,
aku tidak kata aku jahat , jangan salah anggap,
tapi aku mencuba menjadi yg terbaik ,
sebaiknya aku mencuba , kan ?

aku takut aku tidak sempat kenal dgn dunia ini kerana aku masih muda ,
dan banyak lagi benda aku perlu pelajari , aku perlu tahu ,
aku juga takut ,
sempatkah aku menghapus dosa-dosa aku yang menggunung itu ?
sempatkah aku meminta maaf kpd org-org yang telah aku berdosa ?
ibu bapaku ?
masa tidak berhenti , tidak sesekali ,
jadi , mulai dari sekarang , aku perlu berhati-hati dalam setiap perkara yg aku lakukan .
bukannya aku terlalu memikir , or i think so ,
aku cuma tidak mahu ketakutan mengawal diriku ,

tambahan lagi , sekarang , bermacam-macam tanda hari qiamat sudah berlaku ,
itu membuatkan aku lebih takut ,
adakah aku cukup baik untuk masuk ke syurgamu ?
adakah aku terlalu jahat untuk masuk ke nerakamu , ya tuhan ?
itu terletak atas diriku sendiri ,

aku meminta maaf , dari hujung rambut , smpi hujung kaki sekiranya aku telah membuat siapa2 terluka , atau terasa , aku tahu itu semua bukan sengaja , or if it is kau yg mula dulu ,
apa-apa pun , what past is past .

<3

you made my day ,

2008-10-13T10:39:00.003+08:00

went to ou yesterday ,
watched KAMI , and i cried bila abu mati ,
it was like , omg kot :/
im sure yg dia tak mati pun , if dia mati mst ada tunjuk2 kubur2 and all en ? haha
and plus the doctor didnt say anything pun , mst ada the next kami , sape nak bett ? :P
HAHA ,

oh , went there with oyie and mukhlis ;)
heh

<3

balik kampung ,

2008-09-30T17:47:00.004+08:00

ive packed , at last :)
haha ,
brought 12 baju's , 4 jeans , 2 cardigans , 4 baju tidur
haih , for only 5 days and 4 nights , haha pretty much heh ? :/

so , im gonna be away for a while , so , miss me :D

<3

jangan lah buat hal,

2008-09-30T17:35:00.003+08:00

kau nak buat hal time-time genting mcm ni la pulak kan ?
apa masalah kau actually eh ?
ee , tak prnh2 pun jadi mcm ni ,
if dlm kereta aku bosan nnt mcm mana ?
tolonglah , Ya Allah ,
aku memohon kepadamu untuk computerku connect kepada ipodku
amin ya rabbal a lamin

<3

haih

2008-09-30T00:45:00.003+08:00

off to penang tomorrow night , or evening ,
didnt pack yet ,
i dont feel like going , HA-HA as if thats gonna happen

haih , i dont feel right :/
i need the answers now ,
boleh tak ?
omg anith , you have issues , thats what harreyka always say -.- haha
i think im having a teenage life crisis , or not . haha

<3

whaaat ?

2008-09-30T00:32:00.002+08:00

im not in the mood to write , or even talk ,
theres tons of questions popping in my head for you to answer ,
so get ready ,
please ?

<3

woah ,

2008-09-23T15:39:00.002+08:00

feeling better now , kot ? hahaha

had seni , sivik and maths paper today ,

cheated all of seni and sivik's questions ;)
chill lah , test baru ,

texted my maths tuition teacher during maths paper ,
asking for the answer XD
HAHA , jahat kan ? :0

well ,

saya berjanji akan (or trying to , ngeh ) :
- study at least 2 hours a day like i used to
- online at least 1 hr 30 mins (as if , ahaha)
- smyg 5 times ( selalu tertggl asar )
- hmm , eat less-er HAHA

that's all for now kot :/ haha

and nk shopping baju rayaaa ! :(

<3

ohh myyy goddd ,

2008-09-22T21:57:00.004+08:00

i went to jasema enterprise just now to buy a few rujukan books since dah nk dkt exam and buku rujukan yg lama da hilang kot and mcm tak berfaedah pon yg tuu -.-
so yeah , i went there to buy new ones and yg lagi useful la kan ,

then suddenly my dad mcm , 'oh , how did you know buku tu keluar dkt pasaran ?'
and i was like 'whaaaaat ? :S'
then dia mcm 'mcm mana awak tau yg blablabla *tk dgr sgt '
then i was like 'duuuuuuuuuuuuuh , ckg semua tu guna :S , duh papa -.-'
then he was like 'oh , okay , blk nnt study til 3am , mcm main computer tuu'

OKAY , wtf is his problem ?
dia yg suruh org study and all then suddenly mrh pulak beli buku ni ?
WHAT THE FUCK ?
apa masalah doe , urghhh , dia yg selalu babble ckp 'oh , awak tak membaca , tak jadi pndi '
eee , then , what happens now ?
sumpah , mcm , eeeeeee , tatau la nk ckp apa ,
dia suruh i bangga kan dia la and all , now , I AM TRYING , to do so , cant you see ? or you just dont really believe that i can be more than you think i can ?

you dont have to compare me with my friends , YOU , dont know anything ,
ANYTHING ABOUT ME , NOR MY FRIENDS ,
then only thing that you care about is baby , baby , baby , baby , and the upcoming baby ,
which he tells , almost ALL , of his friends that i wanted to have a new brother/sister , which is SO UNTRUE , kalau boleh tanak pon ,
bila this baby lahir lagi lah ,

i am really trying to change okay , but if you're acting like this , how can i ?
haihh , even if its not my fault you will still shout at me and all
i cant stand this thing okay , please for once , try to understand me ,
*how i hope he's reading this shit

and the most unforgettable moment is , you called me STUPID , in front of a bloody electricianist-wtv-crap guy , kalau dkt rumah tu tak apa la , and it is because of a FUCKING IRON THAT YOU DONT EVEN USE FOR GOD'S SAKE ,
and i did cried at that moment , i feel like killing myself , oh my god , imagine your own dad pggl you stupid or bangang .
how does it feels ?

im not that stupid am i ? :/ kan ?

or maybe i am , 4th class over 8 , 3rd in the class over 36 , , yeah , stupid , VERY .
thank you for your kindness , or apa2 yg saya dah menyusahkan hidup papa ,
i really appreciate it and still respect you and still anggap you as my dad ,
thank you , and pleasee , do forgive me if before this ive ever hurt you or anything ,
thank you for not understanding me , thank you for every fucking thing .

it really really really hurt my feelings , you're here , or not , it doesnt make any diff.

<3

and now i really really need someone to talk to , to cry to ,
someone who undestands me ,
where are you when i need to talk to you ?
well , i dont even know whther you understand me or not ,
but right now , i just want to talk to you .

september 22 ,

2008-09-22T16:09:00.007+08:00

today wass sooo funn ,
i guess its the end of the so called sadness week :D hahaha

here are some pictures of us being crazy :D enjoy , haha

ignore me , just look at her face XD

this is my , i can say bestie , atiqah :D haha

and we are the boobies grabber XD

okaaaaay , enough information , hahaha

oh and we had english and bahasa paper just now ,
it is soooo damn easy maaan XD
celah bontot je XD
HAHAHA ,

but i did cheat , i mean , sape tak prnh kan ?
hahaha , texted atiqah during the test ,
tak berkat puasa XD heh
tp , life's brief candle tuu susah doe :/
but hopefully dpt A la kan , its like hello -.- everyday punya language kot , :/

tmrw's seni , sivik and maths :/
im soo gonna study fr maths ,
one of my fav subj tho :/
haha ,

<3

raya raya raya ,

2008-09-22T01:50:00.003+08:00

aaaa , i dont know what to buy since i didnt wear last year's baju raya yet , :/ got 5 for last year , wore 2 , another 3 masuk muzeum , haha . dont know whther still muat ke tak , hahaha , XD

i dont know why but i dont feel like raya-ing , this year :/ usually ill buy mercun and all but this year ? this year is so different , everything's changed ,
people ,
loveness ,

haih , i want it back to the way it was , when everything was perfect , when the family's reunite at mi's(ummi) house ,
but now mi is gone ,
abah got a new step-witch , which he's the 3rd husband (and dia tau bila da kawen , how stupid is that ? ) i guess -.- pfft , *cpt2 lah divorce XD
not that i dont like her , well , honestly , nobody likes her accept for her family lah kan , 8 children ? wow , that's pretty amazing huh ?
apa la dia mandrem abah smpi jd mcm tuu :( *i mean , ure an ustaz , how can you marry someone like that ? her son is a pencuri , for god's sake , tolonglah -______- urghhh
haih , well , i cant do anything , takkan ttbe nak ' abah , bila nk divorce ? '
karang kena pulak ' gapo ni cucuk2 hidung serupo lembu ? pg smaye nuh '
habis lah :/

haha , now im talking crap , okay forget about that ,

but , i just miss mi sometimes :/ i feel like crying , omg , im crying , haihh , its been a sadful week huh ?
she's like a mum to me okay , she's the one who take care of me , haihh , it feels like your mum is gone or something , not that my mum is gone but she took care of me when i was like what ? 2 months til im 5 years old , hows that ? and she's a bit diff from my mum , oh , A BIT ? correction ; CONTRA , i can say , sorry but yeah . haha

this is another thing i dont like abt raya -_____-
well , i , anith dalila usually blk kelantan berseorang , tidak beraya di penang , iaitu at my mum's mum which i can say my grandmother on my mum's side ,
i dont know why but i hate going there -.- not that i hate my grandmother or something just that i dont feel like she (or anyone from my mum's side) loves me pun , :S
and i dont really know family dia punya side thingy thingy , wtv crap , i just kinda tak 'click' dgn diorang .
selalu this yr kelantan , next year penang , then kelantan but skrng since mi is gone , penang je smpi bile2 , gile -___- dah la duduk 3 hari , omg , i cant live with that :(
lps tu blk kelantan bukan duduk dkt rumah dkt kg , duduk dkt hotel ,-.- rumah tu da la besar , nk jugak waste duit , tak faham lahhh , masalahh semua orang , -_________-

esok exam , im soooooooo gonna hmm , not fail but somewhre there ,

you know you love me , xo xo
HAHA :D

this thing makes me happy <3

2008-09-21T14:21:00.002+08:00

i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeee youuuu :D hahaha XD

okayy , im bored , honestly -.- haihh

<3

pfft ,

2008-09-21T13:50:00.002+08:00

aaaaaaaa , i feel like , omg , i dont know whats the word :S yeah , but i dont feel very good , i dont know why , haihh ,
i had this feelings since last night , and its very , VERY , annoying
i feel like marah-ing ppl -.- well , ill end up with tears tho , :S
i dont know why , but i every time i get angry with someone , i'll end up crying like a total loser -.-
adoii ,

everything is just not right , i feel like jumping out of a building .
or maybe i just need to talk to someone ?

well ive talked to paan last night , and its not working ,
i did that thing , that super saver thing , kan its like 4bucks fr 1 hour en ?
i talked to paan was like for only 15 minutes , arghh , ive wasted my credit :/

maybe i just need to talk to my girlfriend or wahida,
or maybe i dont need to talk to anyone ?
okay , wtf is wrong with me ?

and esok test ? great , just great ,
i dont feel like studying , too lazy ,
8Es perhaps ?

<3

bestfriend nowdays,

2008-09-13T01:27:00.002+08:00

apa mslh kau la ? kau igt kau kuat or kaki fighter kau boleh buat mcm tuu ? kau da ckp mcm tu dkt aku then nk ckp cerita semua da tutup ? wtf ? kau tak nak mengaku pulak skrng ? kau baik la ? pg mati lah , aku rasa animals pun tk mcm tu okay ? aku pun pelik asal aku suka kau dulu , not suka , sayang okay ? and kau bgtau aku td yg kau gunakan aku je ? fucker ! sumpah , aku sumpah kau bad luck seumur hidup kau weh ! kau nk revenge dkt aku pehal ? mst kau da psycho paan semua kan ? bajet innocent la ? kau igt kau sape ? you can hide but you cant run , so , keep hiding , because you'll never get away . kau igt aku takut sgt dgn kau ? mmg la kan agak takut ah since mcm kau mcm ganas je , hahaha , but wtv . there's someone who's more powerful than you , and dia la yg tentukan everything , kau kuat mana pun , if dia tak approve kau nk pukul aku ke apa2 , you cant , you just CANT , sumpah aku ckp , aku benci kau gila babi tahap afterlife okay ! kau suka la kan gf kau mabuk , patut la , gf bf rosak , tade sape nk betul kan ? haha , kecik2 da jd mcm tuu , you're still consider as SMALL fr taking all those things you know ?

yeah , wtv , mls la nk layan kauu , mati la kauuu ! :@

life is tragic, haha

2008-08-05T23:33:00.000+08:00

yeah , it does . i dnt know what do you want but dont you feel anything when you hurt ppl's feelings ? i know that its my fault too , but mcm jgn lah buat mcm tu if you anggap i only as a FRIEND , not more than that , you should feel something okay , bila benda tu dah semua org tau , tanggungjawab you terbengkalai . when i received the msg frm you , you said 'just act that we never know each other' , i was like , wtf , wth is yr problem , you said wtv it is , we'd stay tgthr kan ? but now when you ada byk bnd , semua , you just nk leave it like that ? i didnt say that it was yr fault , but you have to think , i trusted you more than anyone else , not really la but still i trusted you kan ? why do you have to do this to me ? to the other one ? when you feel nothing to me , this thing should have not happn . i admit , i am also stupid fr nt thinking twice before i do it because you already had a girlfriend . yeah , i dnt know but , my mind keep thinking and thinking abt this stuff til i cant concentrate on my studies and all , are you using me or what ? just tell me boleh tak ? URGHHH , ure like giving hope to me , and its a hopeless hope :S yeah , something like that , wtv . i dnt even know why do i like you at the frst place altho i know that ure taken :/ but , wtv happns happnd so i cant do anything abt it , we cant fight fate , so right now i just need to think abt my studies and my future , i wish moving on is as easy as i dnt know , the easiest thing la kan , and humans are all the same but the way they think and how their body works or how they tu semua , its different , semua org tade sama otak yg boleh think what's exactly on the other org , so , dont expect me to be like you , because im not you .

26.7 daughtry live at one utama !

2008-07-28T17:45:00.001+08:00

OMG , it was d-bombbbb weyhhh ! chris and josh paul are like sooooooooo damn cute :DDDDD *bungabunga XD HAHA , and like chris like baling towel dia yg da lap sweat2 dia semua but i dont really caree :DDD tp tak dpt :( but still la kannn , and i was standing in front kot , and they're like in front of me , i was like , goshhhh :O hahahaha , like it was a dream , im not a no 1 fan but wtv , i loveeeeeeeeee you guys :D hahahaha , thanks to atiqah la kan , without her mmg takkan dpt ah ;)))))) thanks a lot ! :D syg kau ketat-ketat okay :DD HAHA ,

friends ,

2008-07-26T11:37:00.000+08:00

i didnt know that it hurts so much when i heard that you were talking abt me behind my back , u said you were my bestfriend , and bestfriends dont do such thing , talking behind their bestfriends back . now i realizes that we're not what we used to be, i wnt it back to the way it was when we were dumb . you know , we were very loyal and honest , and now we dont and we become this twofacedbitchdramaqueenfromhell .

and yesterday , ada this 2 girls like mngamuk because of a cake , they have choices , why dont they choose the right one ? they prefer to marah2mcmapaje to their friends than ckp elok2? apa masalah , i do asked everyone dah dpt ke belum , and sape belum dpt boleh dtg dpn amik , and no one says anything abt tak dpt, so i thought semua org dah dpt , and ada cake lg kan , since semua org dah dpt , buat lah 2ndround . then tiba2 nk mengamuk2 marah2 ckp derang belum dpt and suruh hntr dkt derang , what are we ? servants from heaven ? and what are you ? bitch boss from hell ?

dont you realize that your so called soulmate is using you ? HAHA ,

and if you hate me so much then why are you wearing my pants ? -.- im not blind yet or will never , you know ?

this is life,

2008-07-04T23:30:00.000+08:00

this is what we call life , and no one is perfect . so yeah , i woke up and realize that there's so much more to do than just wait one by one to come to me . well , it cant just come to you like that , i have to find it , dig it til you find it . im hurt fr the 2nd time this yr , for some stupid reasons , yeahh but its all settled now , ive moved on :S i guess , ot trying to, wtv :S , thinking what to do next , thinking of my future , think and think some more . yeahh , and everyday i pray to god , and i seem to realize that everyday , every monent of my life mcm tak boleh jd without him :D maybe some of us menyesal ada in this world but that person is soooooo not me , i have great friends , great family , although mcm everyday mst mcm ada yg menyakitkan hati , but that's good , its like menyedarkan you to not do it again or yeah soemthing like that :S . and i seem to have great grades this semester , maybe not that great to someone who like pandai-gila-nak-mati but mcm ok frm last yr :D and i realize that theres no good grades without god and usaha :D USAHA TANGGA KEJAYAAN XD maybe my heart belum terbuka fr tudung but at least i try to cover all my sins with other things that can increase my pahala :) yeahh , that's it fr now , ttyl bye <3

from this <3 to this
2008-06-30T21:02:00.000+08:00
am i doing the right thing ? waiting fr you like a pathetic loser bitch ? you just think about HER feelings , what am i to you ? some kind of a waiting machine ? i know its not yr fault , but you have to think , fhm tak ? you main2 kan our feelings , what are women to you ? barbie dolls ? like after dah bosan and yg lg lawa came out in pasaran and terus buang mcm tuu ? i mean , i dnt know whos fault , and i feel very guilty too , i feel like i'm ruining your relationship with that girl, but when i asked you whether you love me or not and u said yes and you said i was the only one , i mean like besides your family :/ and like you nk break dgn dia then dia tanak then she made you promise to her that you wont leave her ? berapa lama i kena tunggu you lg ? what's the point of waiting fr you pun , you've screwed up every single thing ,

you ppl maybe think that i'm a perampas or wtv but you dont know the details , so keep talking , :)

moved on , finally

2008-06-30T00:00:00.001+08:00

omg , i think im in love again :) i'm so happy that im not stuck with that dumbass anymore :D yeah ahaha . and 28th of june's a history fr me :)))

thanks for the memories,

2008-05-20T22:36:00.000+08:00

well , last night i mimpi yg i dgn my ex get back together :/ well , he was holding my hand tau , masa tu we dah broke up , but then dlm that dream konon nk get back tgthr with me la kot :/
and mcm , i thought i dah get over him , 100%ly -.- suddenly mimpi tu mcm dtg dkt i -.- adoii ,
i am so freaking sad okay , he's the only person yg mcm aaaaaa , i dont know , and bila dah ada mimpi mcm tu , mcm teringat all the things that we've done together , if la kan , IF , pindah rumah as easy as we change our phone numbers :/ i dah pindah berjuta kali dah kot :/ haihh , what's wrong with me -.- i hate myself for still loving him . tp kan mcm tak worth it because he's such a loser , perempuan tu kan mcm toys kot i rasa , ya allah :( pleaseee help me :/ i dont know what to do :| asal dia add i dkt myspace at the frst place ? why did i meet him ? whyyy ? tolong lah , i cant stand living like this anymore , its been almost 3 months okay , why cant i get over you yet ? whyyy ? i hate myself , i hate my life , i hate YOU , why did you do that ? what have i done to you ? whaaaat ? for god's sake pleasee , i just need an explanation , tiba2 je that day i call you and suddenly you ckp i'm too young lah , and i dont understand you ? what the fuck maaan ? -.- tak cukup kasih syg ke apa ? i rasa i dah bg allllllllllll of my heart dkt you , and this is what you did to me ? dump me , yeah , i dont know to who else to bermanja2 accept fr this fucking bloggie , but wtv , i love you bloggie , oh ya , and the 6th day we've broke up , boleh pulak i nmpk dgn minah tu , peluk2 lagi ? when i ask you that day , yg you ada someone else , ckp tak , apa ni ? sape yg tak faham sape ? but stil lah , i tade la nk dump you , tak fikir ke ? org cpl because they want to understand each other , all the prmises semua bull shit , apa masalah you actly ? adoiii ,
and i donk know why i stil loves you eventho u did that to me , its been 3 FUCKING MONTHS -.- lama kot , and still , i belum move on , and u dah tuka 2 gf's , and i dont know til when do i have to suffer like this , i feel like killing my self okay , oh god , i feel like crying :'( i just hope that what i dreamed last night will come true , i dont know why i syg him soooodamnfuckingbloodyshitmuch -.- tlg lah , please , go away , just go . but i dont wnt you to go :( but , AAAA , I DONT KNOW . dah la gf you skrng muka mcm laki , tlg lah , i rasa tak lama lg dpt ah tu gf baru , yelah , cpt boring en ? i understand , HAHA , NO I DONT -.- oh ya , kan perempuan en mainan , sape tak cpt boring dgn toys en ? patut ah , ahaha . i dont know why im talking abt him pun , dah la , mls nk fikir , lagi fikir lagi sakit hati , hati i dia buat smpi calar2 semua , byk scars tau tak , guna vitamin E pun tak hlg2 , evryday ltk bio oil pun tak hlg jugak , just remember that allah nk uji i je , how strong i am :/ i guess , but i know that im not that strong anymore , not before i met him , so i think meeting him was the BIGGEST MISTAKE ive made , i shouldnt have met him that day , I REGRET , aku menyesal aku jumpa kau , aku menyesal kau bf aku , aku menyesal curahkan kasih syg aku dkt kau , AKU MENYESAL SEMUA BENDA YANG AKU BUAT DEMI KAU , and i also believe that every single guy in the world sama je mcm dia ni accept fr nabi je , he's the only one yg faham how perempuan feels , sumpah if aku tak get over him dlm beberapa month lagi , i'll kill myself , i dont know why is this guy so special to me you know -.- , i hate that i love you , dont you remember the days we had tghthr ? HAHA , MMG TAKKAN LAH , okay , i mcm merepek dah skrng , talk abt the same thing after bnd lain , ahahah , mmg fail ah essay if buat mcm ni , but who cares ? this is just a blog , it has nothing to do with exams , and i dont care what you ppl say , im desperate fr my ex ke , ckp lah , because you dont know how does it feels when the ppl you love the most dumped you ? and tade perasaan langsung ? no pity ? and all that , haha , yeah ,

thanks fr reading this shit ,

anith , xoxo

BFH

2008-05-18T19:57:00.000+08:00

which means BITCH FROM HELL . haha , lantak aku nk tiru kau , loser

which means Bitch From Hell.

You don't call a senior rude names. It should be the opposite way round. Itupun, we don't do. We don't flirt our way to popularity. We don't trade boyfriends like you guys do. We don't, ok. Shit, i wish i could tell everyone MY side of the story. But this is too public. I'm tired of being the one saying Sorry. Mampus ah dia nak buat apa. Dahla budak keciiiiiiiiik. Ee. Tak malu langsung. You went too far without realizing it. Or, maybe you did realize but you don't give a damn in the world about how the others may feel. Apa hall nak bagi stares ? We're a year older than you. Camne boleh nak buat in the first place, ntah. Like i said, tak malu sial.

Loves,
nadia

lantak aku lah nk stare dkt kau , kenapa ? takut , ngahaha :D kau a year older je , lain ah kau da 20 bodoh -.- budak keciiiik ? excuse me :D kau besar sgt skrng ? :D dah la PENDEK , bahaha :D
aku kisah abt korang punya feelings but then kau yg sakitkan hati aku dulu , what to do ? i push aside the feelings that you guys may feel :D i dont give a fucking cow shit abt your feelings if you mess with me, najis :D i may be bitchy , but , you're not ke ? :D org yg pakai tudung pun ( not you wahida ) boleh jd bitch apetah lagi org yg tak pakai tudung dan amat perasan :D aku nk flirt ? lantak aku lah :D kau bkn mak bapak aku , mak bapak aku tak halang pun :D aku bukannya flirt face to face , msn sudah , kau jealous ke derang tak lyn kau ? BAHAHAHA . ure tired of saying sorry ? you yg start the kesalah fahaman , and u expect i yg nk ckp sorry ? hello , eventho ure older than me it doesnt mean that the younger ones have to say sorry -.- bengong , bodoh ke apa aku tatau . and kau nk penat mendenye ? ahahaha , mcm la kau kena lumba lari or anything -.- duhh , mst la aku tak malu buat mcm tu , if aku malu mcm mana aku boleh buat ? adoiii , ada otak , akal , semua ada aku rasa , tak menggunakannya dgn betul i guess :D pg smyg lah , taubat byk :D ill never forgive you SISTAH , and i dnt care kau nk forgive aku ke tak because you're just a pile of shit to me <3

anith , xoxo

aaaaaa ,

2008-05-09T15:47:00.000+08:00

sorry bloggieeeeee , lama tak tulis , miss me ? :D bahahaha x)
well , hmm , stress next week exam :/ i dnt think i can catch up oh :/
mcm fail je all subjects nnt :((( i da jadi bodoh do :/ no offence XD hahahaha
but yeah , mcm lembap je skrng , otak je ada but tale fikir sgt -.- haihhh
i hate stupidility :/
aaaaa , fuck ahh :/ takuuuuut , sejarah and science is like sgt susah -.-
haihhh ,
k ah , nk study , fail karang ada org marah , and kena byr 10 bucks -.-
and and ,
idkw , but pn zaheera , eeeeeee ,
terjerit2 , i mean tak payah la nk mrh sgt , mcm dia bagus sgt la nk pggl kitaorang stupid , dungu
andd all that , but mmg dia bagus pun , kata cikgu en -.-' still
tak payah la nk curse2 murid sdiri , and dia doa kiterang semua mati cpt , -.-
haihhh , dah la she's pregnant , miscarriage karang , nnt nk blame kiterang :@ MASALAH !

bye , xoxo
anithdalilarockstar

golden night :)

2008-04-13T19:14:00.000+08:00

it was fun :D and agak ramai hotties ;) and ada one time tuu , like i terjatuh not exactly terjatuh , i was like tak nmpk the tangga and almost jatuh infront of aniss's brother yang sgt hot tuu -.- and like blk2 dia bgtau aniss and like he laugh yg kaw kaw punya laa :/ sheesh , dia hot sgt :/ that's why i tak nmpk tangga tu kot XD hahaha , yeahh , and i took a picture with radhi OAG :D two pictures actly :D
yeahhh , :D and he's like sooooooooo damnnnnn handsomeeeeeeeee :) yeahh :D hahaha

omg , g2g , daddy's back :/
ill write soon ,
xoxo , bye :D

yeahhh babyyy :D

2008-04-10T22:13:00.000+08:00

THANK GOD ,

i dah tau apa nk pakai for golden night ;)
haha , at frst mcm nk pakai kebaya , but then mcm,
:/ i dnt know , and mama pun ckp that kebaya org 'tua' je pakai XD
hahaha , yeahhh ,
then korek2 wardrobe semua , jumpa la this dress :) i bought it last mnth ,
and havent wear it yet , so im gonna wear it tmrw night , :D omg ,
saya sgt teruja :D hahaha ,
and ill wear it with high heel , tp mcm nak beli baru punya :/
but mcm , takut nk mintak since frst2 nk mintak mama belikan dress baru pun
susahhh , adoiii , hahaha , but wtv it is , i dah tau nak pakai apa :D hahaha

DOT

aaaaaaaaa, esok ada maulidur rasul thingy :/ and rasa mcm mls nak pg :/
but then ada bolbal punya practice -.- haihhh , i guess dtg sekolah abt 1030 kot :D
hahaha , and then ada tuition and kumon :/ and my kumon's wrksheet hilanggg , i am so
DEAD . i dah cr merata tmpt , and dah try to refresh blk where did i put them -.-
mcm org gila , nnt mula la ms lim kata bullshit laaa -.- adoiii ,
i wish dah tak payah belajar , and like pndi mcm einstein,edison,avicenna,rhazes,newton etc :/
and jd org terpandai , and terkaya , woahhh :O
okayyy , im talking rubbish dah , hahaha . okayy laaa , nak buat hw :/
ill write again , sooner or later :D
hahaha ,
okayyy

anithdalilazainalabidinsuperstar xoxo :*
byeeeeee

two days before golden night -.-

2008-04-09T19:11:00.000+08:00

aaaaa ! tolonggg , tatau nak pakai apa :( golden night lagi 2 harii , god , please help meeeee :(
at frst dah book table dah , then after dah fikir blk about baju and stuff , mcm mls , then cancel :/ and then artist dia semua mcm erm , you knoww XD and then 2 days before tuu , baru tau MEET UNCLE HUSSEIN & OAG DATANG , i was like , wtf maaan -.- then pg dkt ckg and book blk , and thank god ada lagi 1 table left :O
ahhh , and now tatau nk pakai baju apa pulak -.- sheesh , and like kena sopan and stuff since dgn sekolah punya thingy -.-
aaaaaaaa , i tatau nak pakai apa , :O

HELPPPP MEEEEEE !

omg , ;/

2008-04-08T22:37:00.000+08:00

OMG OMG , sgt susaaaah nk edit2 bnd2 nii , :( pening i , kesian wahida kena explain over and over again smpi i faham :/ hahaha , but now i dah faham mcm mana nk arrange all these things :D haha ,tade la susah mana pun actually :D

sleepy dahh o.o hw dah la belum siap , and like kh mcm semua belum -.- stresss , tak sempat nk buat :( and now i rasa i dah jd sgt stupid sbb byk tak masuk class , 'tak boleh jadi ni' (sya's sentence, bila dia ckp mcm sgt skema -.- HAHA) :/ i have to study hard ! yeahhh babyy :D and nxt week and this week pun mcm busy jugak , this month yeah :/

HAHAHA , nisa dkt dpn tv , tertido , sumpah lawak gila ! hahahaha :D

HAHAHA , nisaaaaaaaaaaaa , jgn maraaaah XD

cikgu p ;(

2008-04-08T21:57:00.001+08:00

alaaa , cikgu dah nak pindah sarawak :(
dia like best gila la kot :/
dah la nk pegi jauh2 jee ;/
dah la dia hot kaaaan :D hahaha XD
and kalau dia tak pergi , like government suruh byr like 130,000 -.- gila ke apa ,
bodoh tak ? bodoh gila kan ? yes , i know -.- nak smpi 100thousand jee ,eeee , bongok
-.- and friday ni last dia dkt ttdi :/ sape yg pegi golden night dpt la jmp dia :/ i tak pergi ,
mls and mcm kena beli dress semua lagi , tak sempat , but i naaaaaak pergii ;/
and maybe that night pergi scrt recipe , clbrate mng kawad wtv tuu :D
buuuuuuuuuuuuuuut
kena bayar sdiri -.- but wtv la kaaan :D at least dpt keluar jugak :D or tak pun , pegi rasta :/ but mcm rasta dah jauh gila , kena panjat bukit2 laa , and the old rasta tu derang nk buat apartment -.- and like tmpt tu kecik gila nk matii like kecik kecik -.- and lagi 4 mnths makbul nk pindah pegi hartamas , and like dah tade tmpt nk lepak since rasta like waaaaaaaaaaaaay jauh -.- haihh ;/

first time :)

2008-04-08T20:46:00.000+08:00

yo yo :D
ni 1st time i tulis blog :/ so yeahh , hahaha .

hari ni sgtlah mls nk pegi sekolah but what to do kan . bila da sampai sekolah rasa best pulak since my classmate semua org-orang gila kaaaan , hahaha , :D

and yeahh , i buat lagu :D with harreyka and maria ,
its fun fun :D dah la masa maths kaaan , and ckg like buat tak kisah je , so yeahh :D
hbs la lagu hujan,britney spears semua ,
bila aku sudah tiada by hujan rosak hbs i translate in english , hahaha ,
maria and harreyka gelak je kerja derang -.- but tu mmg kerja derang :D thanks fr laughing :S

and then ptg tuu , i kena pegi sekolah blk :/ sbb ada handball's practice , tournament on 14/4 !
:( then mcm agak rush laaa , sbb ada kumon , and mcm mlm tu nisa nk dtg so kena pg kumon awal , :/ nasib hw semua dah siap , kalau tak mati i dgn ms lim x(
then mcm hujan :/ so mcm agak tak penat laa :D
dah balik rumah tuu , lapar mcm piranha dah , so pegi rasta , borong borong , beli satay la , steak laa , mcm2 , then tak hbs :/ tu laa , hahaha . lepas tuu nisa dtg :D nisa dtg baru i nk mnd , hahaha . yeahh , busuk :S but now dah wangi :D
hahaha , yeahhh
i rasa tu jeee fr now :D
ill write moree and moreee and moreeeee :D
byeeee , xoxo :*